ThE bLuEs

Ok people, this post is slightly old, was written at a time when my life seemed to be a roller coaster ride with no seat belts(believe me the ride is still on, though i managed to find some seat belts), am trying to fix my '6 months hiatus' disease and off course 'twas an important part of my life, so if nobody else reads it, i would want to read it some time later.peace out!!
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Have been going through a rough patch couple of days, bad news pouring in faster than you can say 'hoochimaama'(no idea where that patch of sunshine came from). worked very hard for the IIT's this year, put in a lot of hard work and even more time, no guitar lessons, and TV reduced to half an hour a day, haven't gone out of my house for weeks at an end, extremely dissapointed to see it all gone down the drain, all over again. and before i could get over it was hit hard on my face with the DCE results. managed to get a 22000 in AIEEE, apparently is enough to get a seat definately hope so.
was extremely broken down when the results where announced, now i guess it's more frustation than dissapointment and failure, people walk up and tell me that i shouldn't take it too seriously and just let it pass, but they don't get it, it ain't about the pain when i fall down, it's more of am I worth it all, or should i just forget and choose a new road or something, or am I just destined to fall down i even try to get up and fight, never have been this skeptical or pessimistic before, guess the wounds from falling again and again have finally reached a point where they are hurting me, especially cause i am someone who is way to ambitious.
hopefully will manage to get out of this ditch soon, but i doubt if i'll be able to get out with my pride and ambitions unscathed, i hope i do, that's the only thing that's kept me going for the 18yrs of my life past all the hurdles, though i managed to upturn loads of them before. found an intresting mail talking 'bout luck and how i depends on the perspective of people, seems to be working already, hopefully will help me get through all this ruckus, beautiful, peace of 'online literature', will post it sometime on the blog for everybody to read, probably will end up changing a few lives.
all for now hopefully, will get over this by the next blog, life's gotto go again, got no other option, and if life's go to go on, well so have I.

A little less depressed and,
Already a smile playing on ma face,
Ishan 'Juggernaut' Roy
keep dhooming 'n' stay mehfuz